Writing The Life

The Nationwide Lockdown

The roads were empty, there was no one on the usually busy streets, there were no vehicles on the usually jammed roads by traffic. The people who were usually so busy with their work and had no time for themselves, let alone for the family, were now free with no work and all time for themselves.

They were free as they always wished for, they were on a break now.

But, this was not what they wished for.
This was not what they had ever dreamt of. This was not what “we” were prepared for. This was not what we wanted.

We all have always, at some point in time, wished for a break to go to a place quiet, serene, beautiful and far away from this busy world.

But, this was different.

There was panic and chaos all around. It was as if we were stuck in the middle of the sea on a deserted island with no way out.

We were on a break, not by choice but by the guidelines. This was not a gift rather a punishment.
The punishment of our own deeds.

This pandemic made our otherwise well-settled life upside down. It was like the nature was taking revenge.
All of us were forced to be at our homes and work non stop.
Many were forced to go out of their comfort zones to survive. The people were losing their homes, their work, their jobs, their positions.
They were losing their lives to this pandemic and to the loneliness caused by it.

Everything around was out of control, many didn’t even had basic amenities to survive. There was no money, no food and no shelter.

This was the worst time one could see, there was no solution and it was an intangible enemy, we had to fight with, rather we are still fighting.

But, this Pandemic made us realise the importance of our time, our family, our work and the one and only life we have.

This life is precious and we should value it.

All this while, we had been taking our lives for granted. This pandemic has made us value our life. It has taught us that the time is precious and if, once gone cannot be earned again.

So, spend this time carefully because we have only one life.
The one life to live for ourselves, for the people we love and the ones who love us.

Happiness has different meaning for different people. Every person you meet in life, or every person in this world is different and so are their thoughts, their way of seeing this world.

The things which make you happy cannot guarantee someone else’s happiness. The things which keeps you going might not be necessarily same for them as well.

In this world, we often get carried away by the things others do. There is this constant fear of missing out on the things others are doing, and are happy.
But, what makes them happy may not make you happy

If someone is happy travelling all the world, then some where for someone, being at home and chilling, is the happiest thing in this world.

Every individual is different, so be happy in your own clothes. The whole life we have been busy finding happiness in the things others are doing. But, the fact is happiness was always there, within us.

So, find your happiness in what you like, and not what others say you would like.

You have been given one life. This life is for you to make memories, to make yourself happy, to do what you love to do.
This life is not to do what others think will make you happy but to do what makes you happy.

Life is uncertain and nothing is constant in this world. So, be happy when you get a chance or may be give life a chance and be always be happy….

Ankita

Letter to My Younger Self

Dear Me,

My sweet little self.
You don’t know me, but I know you well because I am your elder self.

The 2.0 version of you.
Yes! The 2.0 version because while getting older I changed.
I changed as per the situations, the time, and as it was required.

But, you know what I still feel I should not have changed. I shouldn’t have given up to the situations.

So, hey… Little me… Never doubt yourself.
The people around may doubt you, they might try to manipulate you or brainwash you, as per their wish and for their advantage.
But, you need to trust yourself because only you know everything about you, the intentions behind your decisions and the reasons behind the choices you make.

You cannot keep everyone happy.

Everyone you meet or everyone you have, are neither always right nor always wrong. Every individual is different, and so are you.
You don’t need to prove yourself or be a person with identical thoughts everytime.
This doesn’t mean you are wrong, neither it means they are. It’s just difference of opinions.

Be strong… Be confident… Listen to everyone, but follow what your heart says and trust your intuitions.

Every day will teach you a new lesson, in its own ways.
Don’t be disheartened, if things are not coming out the way you wanted to, that’s not a failure. You need to have patience, there might be something good hidden for you in it.

Learn to love yourself first, spend time with yourself, before Expecting others to love you.

Every person who comes in your life won’t be there forever. Everyone you meet in life, only comes to play their part in our story of life and leaves once their part is over. So, understand and move on.

Never take a decision in anger, it could backfire.
They say, “Every action has an equal an opposite reaction”.
But, don’t trust them because every action does not require your reaction. Every action or every situation or every person you meet is not worth your time.

Value your time because there is only one life and one chance, and making this chance an opportunity or a regret of a lifetime is in our hands.

At the end, love yourself, be confident and its ok to be selfish sometimes for your happiness.
So, be happy..be you..live in the moment..make memories and never change….

Love,
Myself.

School Life. School Friends.

All our childhood we would pray to complete our school life as soon as possible, get big and step into the next phase of our life, where no one’s permission would be required, where we would be able to do what so ever we want, where no one will restrict us, no one would instruct us.

But, after finally getting that big, what we all must have felt at some point in time, while watching children going to school or while watching some teenagers in a group talking and laughing loud, is what a life it was when we were kids, when we were in school.

Yes, the school life we always hated living, is actually the time we miss the most. The carefree, innocent moments and memories that we cherish today, and will do so the rest of our lives.

This was the time of our lives where we lived our lives to the fullest, where we were not feared of the rat race, we wouldn’t judge each other, we would love each other unconditionally and hate each other for not sharing our lunch boxes.

Today, remembering those fights, sharing those memories we laugh out loud. How silly we were.

Those were the times where we didn’t know the meaning of friends and friendship but we would still care for each other, fight for each other and obviously with each other as well because come on a fight tells how strong
a relationship is.

The fight for lunch because “why was it shared with someone without asking me, I eat your lunch daily, right.” The fight for sharing more time with the other person because “I am your best friend”. The fight for sitting together in the class because “how dare you sit with the other person”.

The endless silly fights and endless misunderstandings and then endless time to convince and apologize.

Those were the days when we would share all our feelings, our crushes, our fights, our good times our bad times everything.

We would live our life freely, fear nothing, love everything and would hate the classes. We would make plans to go out, and then meet and plan our future outings, plan for those road trips, to the beaches, to the mountains, to the moon and what not.

The plans to get admission in the same college, to stay together and never get married..

Yes, now these memories make us laugh but then we just wanted to get big and get independent.

But, those memories, that part of our life remain in our hearts forever and ever because that was the life we now dream of, the careless and fearless life.

A life far away from this daily struggle and race to get bigger and better everyday every minute and everytime in search of success and happiness.

You Only Live Once

In this fast-paced life, we are too busy frittering our time unconcerned about it’s value to us and to our lives. We forget to acknowledge the fact that this is the most expensive thing we have today.

This time… this moment… this second… this is something we are loosing and won’t ever get back. This moment, once gone would never come back to us.

We will never be able to earn this, whatsoever amount of hardwork we put into, to get this time back.

All this while, we have this thought to be more successful, to be more happy, to love more and be loved more.

But, everything we do is not for today or this time, everything we do is for an uncertain future that might come or might not.

We think that we are planning for ourselves, for our betterment, but, we never realised the fact that the future which we have been or are planning for, is uncertain.

We can never predict what the future has in its hands for us, it might be just the way you planned or it might be just the contrary.
We start planning something and things just might not work that ways and we change our plan. We just start thinking of someone being constant with us and the bubble bursts, again changing us and everything around.

The only thing that has been constant all this while is the change.

Then why do we really care so much about this uncertain future, why don’t we live in this moment, in this present time. Why we need to take control of everything and why don’t we just live free.

We all beings living here have only one life and limited stock of time, which unfortunately is going to get over one day. This is the truth and we can’t run away from this.

There is one life and unlimited wishes to be fulfilled. This one life is unpredictable and we never know what happens the next moment, whether we will be there or not to fulfill the dreams we always had.

So, this is the time, don’t wait for the right time to come, it’s now or never.

The dreams you have always had live it, follow your passion, love your work or work for what you love.

This is the time to live not to think what’s right or what’s wrong, what the people will say.

Just take a deep breath and live for what you have always dreamt of, don’t do something you don’t want to, love unconditionally and live life king size.

Don’t be normal, be crazy and do what makes you happy, because you only live once…

Control your Thoughts

All day, all time, every second there is something that stays with us, a constant feeling that moulds us, that makes us, that breaks us and grows us.

This ongoing thing within us, which is behind all our decisions, is our thoughts. It is the thoughts, which is behind the choices we make.

All day we think, we analyse the situations and over think about the choices which we should make.
We think about the little things happening around, the big decisions we need to take and everything around.
But, at times we tend to over evaluate the situation and make it worse while trying to make it better. We question ourselves, the situations, analyse the probabilities of our do’s and don’ts. We think what might just work and what might not.

There are times when an incident just takes over our minds and endlessly looping our thoughts. We think over and over it, scrutinizing what might have went wrong or what could have been done to not let the damage happen or what better could have happen.

In all this analysis, you might not realize the fact that your mind has taken over your body, not letting you think otherwise.

We tend to ignore this and get captive of the mind making ourselves slaves of our thoughts.
But, what we need to realize is that we are reflection of our thoughts, whatsoever we think will reflect our behaviour towards a situation or a person.

We need to control our thoughts, before these thoughts of ours start controling us.
We need to think before saying, before doing something but overthinking these situations won’t do any good to us.

Let yourself be free, not slaves to your own thoughts.

Goal of Life

These days people are busy making a living for themselves. Everyone you meet wants to more successful and achieve big.
Everyone aims to be in a superior position, to have his own big car or house, and everything else in the world.

But, are these really what we want from our life.

Once you achieve these, then what next, a bigger aim, a bigger target, a bigger car or bigger house.

This is not the goal of our lives, this is what we do for a better standard of living.
This is a never ending cycle for our living. These things are material and once you achieve them, you strive for more.

The ultimate goal for our life has always been to be happy and make our loved ones happy.

The happiness which we search for, is always around us, but we never acknowledge them as we are busy chasing our “Goals”.

The happiness is in the little moments which we come across every now and then like that morning cup of tea or that 10 minutes of extra sleep after snoozing the alarm.

That smile from a stranger, the unknown kid who held your finger and is not letting you go, that is happiness.

The favourite dish in your lunch box which you unknowingly opened and don’t forget pizza delivery when you are so hungry.

Your parents being proud of you, that is happiness.

The happiness is in that sunrise on the top of the mountain, the sunset on the beaches where the sun meets the water.

The happiness is the welcome by snowfall on way to a hill station and that least expected rainfall in the evening with hot tea.

A gift being received for no reason, your friends with a surprise on your birthday, that is happiness.

These little moments which we get to have daily, steal these moments because this is the goal of our life. The happiness we get from these little moments is what we strive for and what we crave for all our lives.

The achievements are essential but the happiness in life is equally important.

A big car won’t give you happiness if you are driving it alone.
A cabin will not cheer you up, your family waiting for you at home will do that.

Strive for more, but not at the cost of these small moments of life.

Being a Girl

Being a girl is fighting a battle all her life,
Fight to be born,
Fight to not be thrown away to die,
Fight to get educated,
Fight to get equal opportunity to grow,
Fight to be standing strong alone,
Fight not to be stopped from chasing her dreams,
Fight not to be stopped from making her own identity,
Fight to follow her passion,
Fight to be treated equally,
no less no more just equality
Fight not to be judged.

The battle doesn’t stop here rather starts from here,
The battle to be strong on the roads,
From the random stares, random comments,
From the unending conversations teaching to be like a girl,
From the unending protection from the world.

The battle starts to prove that she is capable,
To prove she is enough,
To prove she has her own identity,
To prove that she can do it and she will do it.

This battle is her life and she is unstoppable.

Breakup of Friendship

Friends are someone we choose in our life because we connect to them, we find similarities in them, we find ourselves in them.

The people, we are lucky to have as our extended family. The people who we love unconditionally, with whom we have no expectations and lots of fun.
We share our lives with them, our happiness, our sadness and who are our partners in crime.

We might fight, say millions of things against them,
‘but, you dare not say anything against them, only I have the right to say because they are my friends…’

We may fight but we love each other more than that. We share all our secrets with them, we share our fights with them, we share our love with them.

From, “I fought with my mom today…”, To “I just love my mom”.

From, “You know what happened today…” To, “I hate these gosspis…”

From, ‘It was a terrible day today, let’s sit somewhere for sometime…’
To, ‘I don’t have anything to wear, let’s go shopping today…’

From, ‘I don’t feel like going home this early, let’s go hang out..’
To, ‘I am feeling hungry, let’s go eat something out…’

From, ‘ I am in love, and this time its different..’
To ‘I hate this person, we were never meant to be together…’

We have shared everything from our struggles, our first job, our first achievement, our promotion, to our childhood crushes, our first love, our first break up, and every second of our life with them.

They guide us sometimes and sometimes we protect them.

Then one fine day we realise, everything has stopped, the sharing, the gossips, the endless talks, the good times together, the bad times together, everything has come to a stand still.

We try hard to get to know what had changed, what had happened, what might have gone wrong.

But, the time, the distance between us, the misunderstandings, the miscommunications had created a void between us and this emptiness cannot be filled now.

Its too late now to be normal again. Now, you have yourself, the memories and the broken heart.

This was the Break Up of our Friendship.

Ankita

Wishes & Dreams

We all have so many wishes to fulfill, the dreams which doesn’t let us sleep. We wake up in the middle of the night thinking how to execute these. We are living our lives in this hope that one day we will be satisfied, we will be happy to achieve these dreams.

Some are happy to have accomplished this success that they have, some are happy to see their loved ones fulfill their wishes because of them.

But, its the little moments in our lives which we always wish for, which drives us.

Its not reaching the top of the hill that makes you happy; its the journey to that hill top that amuses you.
Its not your office cabin or huge salary that you wish for; its the respect, the authority that comes along with it, that you strive for.
Its not the luxurious car that we dream of, its a long drive with our friends which we wish for.
Its not about a big house that we ever wanted, its about coming back home to a loving family that we always want.

These dreams of ours to see ourselves in that position, strives us to live and achieve all that we ever wanted. These wishes are the driving factor we all have, to be existing in this world.

This smile which we earn, after going through all the pain, the happiness which we get after all the struggles is worth it.

A life without wishes is a life without the purpose of living.

The money we earn or the assets we have, is not the purpose of our life, it never was.
The purpose of our life always was and is to make ourselves happy and see our loved ones happy, because of us.

Follow your dreams and wish for happiness…